yuletide nominations and healing and travel stuff

[levoi]

Yuletide update: Some other people nominated Atomic Blonde, so I used my third nomination for Thunderheart.

Carly update: I'm eating solid food! I'm back to hardly sleeping! I'm drained af and I have pain and I can't seem to drink enough. I have a lot of movement restrictions (I cannot bend over, stretch, reach, or twist. Stairs are hard and walking too much is hard, and it's really hard getting up and down out of beds and chairs.) I have not canceled my trip, and my flight out is Wednesday afternoon. I feel super unprepared. I was going to cut and color my hair to look presentable while I am actually among people for three weeks, but obviously that's off the table. I'm going to try to get my eyebrows shaped at Benefit tomorrow, but it took me an hour to take a shower today, so that may be too ambitious. I was going to do my nails today, too, but I got too tired. I definitely overdid it today; I took a shower and ate three meals and made some phone calls and did some testing for that depression study and wrote a cover letter for my sister. It was too much, but it needed to get done. I have more calls to make; I am going to call the airline to see if they can help me with getting through the airports and carrying my bags and that. I have to call my neurologist for a fifth time; I leave messages, and they respond with messages they leave on the voicemail of a number I've told them repeatedly not to use (isn't that a HIPAA infraction?), so we have yet to speak in person, and when they call, it's like they haven't even listened to my messages. They left a message today telling me they have an appointment for me next week, when my messages say I will be across the country then. I'm very frustrated. I have no headache pills, and my doctor advised me to be sparing as possible with the toradol because of my gut. I suffer without drugs, but the pain never breaks, not even when I sleep. I am terrified of three weeks of trying to spend time with my family and my BFF and do things while feeling like my skull is crushed.

Hoping for the best! I would prepare for the worst, but that is not an option I have right now. Onward!